It's Been a While

Since I last blogged. I go through phases where I want to write all the time, and others when I am more reserved and don't feel like letting the world see what is going on in my life. I don't know why I go through these phases, but they usually coincide with something going on in my life that I am not proud about. This time, it was being laid off for the second time in a year and a half, and it is something that gets you to question your own ability to do a job, but I know it was nothing to do with my work. The defense and aerospace industry is about contracts, and when the F22 was canceled, so was the system I was working on and my job went kaput. It was easy for the company to let me go because I only worked there for a few months, and the severance package they owed me was minimal. With one door that closes, a new one opens though.

I am in the beginning stages of starting up my own garage with my brother in law, and I am also teaching college courses at Bunker Hill Community College. I have found that I really REALLY like teaching, and if it was more financially viable, I would change careers. On the business, we have specked out a few locations, one of them is in Middleton and the other is in Wakefield. I am meeting with the SBA today in hopes that I can garner some of the ARRA money from the government. With the $70 or so Billion set aside for the SBA and small business development, I am pretty confident I can wrestle some startup money from them. It isn't my first choice in terms of a startup, but it is something that will help establish my sister and brother in law for their future, and it will be a way I can help out my niece and nephews for the long term of their life. I was once a small business owner when I was younger, and I am excited about getting the chance again.

On other fronts, I am also starting up my own photography business, and I have the web site picked out already. I now have to work on my website design, something that I am also starting to learn. Working with Adobe illustrator, Designer, Photoshop and other programs, I am starting to learn my way around coding an web development.

I have also learned that I still have the Italian streak that some times will get me in trouble, even when I am in the right. Twice in the past week I have opened my mouth when I should have just ignored the situation and gone on my way. One time was at a complete ass that was harassing an elderly man, the other was an MBTA police officer that was starting with me on Halloween in Salem. I don't think it is something that I will ever lose, and I am still not sure that is a bad thing. I know that if anyone hurts those I love, they will have to deal with the wrath of Michael, and that may be a good thing.

In the relationship department, I am still seeing A and we are planing our lives together. I couldn't be happier, as she has made me realize that I can actually have it all. I have always wanted someone who was compatible with me on the different levels of life, and she is not only compatible, but the best in every aspect of life. Not only is she hot, successful, smart, witty, she is also one of the nicest people I have ever met in my life. She doesn't have a selfish bone in her body, and it is something that I am not used to in terms of relationships. In my past relationships, I have learned more about myself, because of the way I was treated, and I thought there must be something wrong with the way I went about my business. Because of this, and because I have been able to see how hurtful my actions were, I am now able to be the man I want to be in life. It started about 2 years ago, and it continues to this day, transforming myself into someone great who will make part of a great team. I am for ever indebted to my past loves, because their actions showed me how much my actions hurt. A is the beneficiary of all the pain and torment I went through, and she is the reaper of the rewards. I couldn't be happier. . .well I could be happier, I could have 2 business' up and running, work as a teacher, move into a million dollar house, have a family and also be gainfully employed, but that is all the cherry on top. Right now I get to have my cake and eat it too, which isn't a bad place to be in life :)

Peace Out,
Michael